Fluxxed

This is my girl friend, Joanna Kennedy or chasingvans( follow her, she`s rad) We`ve been together since the 27th of November up till now. 

She has taught me many many many things from how to pronounce words properly, how to spell properly, random facts ( from the origin of words and or food and or something of the like), how to have fun with the people you`re with, how to look on the bright side of things, how to stay strong, how to not afraid to be yourself, how people are beautiful in their own special way, the truth about the way people are,  the value of friendship and the value of love . 

Things haven`t been all rainbows and green fields in our relationship. What is a relationship without fights and arguments ? We arent afraid of telling one another how we feel towards each other when were mad . It`s gets painful at times and sometimes its unbearable ( it drives me insane sometimes ) . But when the issue blows over things are perperperfection and we both cant get enough of one another . I remember the time we went to Subic last summer, she wrote me a letter that I should read when I feel least loved and least appreciated, she even wrote it in 2 pages of her Sock Monkey journal ( it came along with an awesome mix tape with an awesome cover ). The fact she wrote me the letter made me jerk a tear, but half way through the letter I couldnt help it anymore . I held on to her as tight as I could and told myself that I`ve never felt this loved and I doubt someone would love me even half as much . Even if it was given to me a long time ago, I still read it when I feel down or sad . It never fails to pick me up and carry on . It`s so surprising what words written down on paper could do to a person . I read it as much as I can, being loved is the best feeling in the world . It gives you the best high, the best drunk and the best everything . 

This photo was taken yesterday while she was waiting for her turn for her photo shoot . She is fucking beautiful, dont you agree ? She is using India for as her country for the coronation night . I remember her telling me how beautiful India is . I only brought up the things we see on tv. But soon enough, I was able to see the beauty in it . It`s all up to you . I promised her that once I had enough money or won the lottery, I`d take her there and many other places . I believe that traveling with the person you love is the is one of the best feelings in the world. you`ll never forget the trip and the person you`re with even if you tried . anyway, I remember when I told her I was getting a new laptop the first thing she said was ” get ready to have your laptop full of me nyahaha ” At first I was like ” oh god ” but now I love how she rapes my photo booth . If you could see all 451 photos, you`ll see how happy she makes me, I actually smile when I have photos with her . She makes me feel like a child and makes me be true . Whenever I feel down, sad, happy or just plain miss her . I view photo 1 all the way to the last one . I recall what she was saying before we took it and the laughs we`d share when the photo is funny . I don`t like it when she deletes a photo cause she ” looks ugly ” cause she doesn’t ! she is already beautiful as is and I believe that if you love a girl enough, she`s beautiful no matter what .

Drama is a part of love and so is pain, but too much the both is never good . I can honestly say that most of the problems in our relationship comes from me . I apologize for that, I just admire her patience for me . she waits for me and even if I`m late sometimes, she never fails to greet me with a smile .  I complain alot and I`m sorry for that, I do because I know she`ll listen to me and not judge . Love is always improving, it always grows, never falters .

I know I`m not the best boyfriend out that but I want you to know that I`m trying my best to get there . we should stop thinking about what I`ve done in the past and focus what I`ll be doing in the future . I lack in some departments, but I`m working on it . I just need your patience . It`s taking some time but It`s getting there, I promise you . I only drive up and down hi ways for you, I love how you take your baby steps and smile when you go towards me for my morning hug, I love your face when I give you something unexpected, I love doing errands with you, I love doing new things with you ( like going to Magallanes just to get a shawarma ), I love spending time with you  and having spontaneous days . I could go on and on and on and on . But I dont want to tire you out. So let me just simply say 

I love you so much, bee 

We`ll get through this .